have you been on a boat wherein nobody knows where the hell the boat is going.???
Its been more than two months since i joinjed the classes at Amity University. I came here not by choice but because none of my plans turned out the way i wanted, and even after religiously attending classes for more than two months, i know SHIT about events and PR.
Take "today" as an examle, out MENTOR came in the class and she was having a so called healthy conversation with the students. she asked us "what are the problems do we have regarding classes?" i mean, cant she see for herself? we come around 9:30 in the morning and almost everyday after the first two hours of classes we are free, in a way, then we PLAY to kill the time. Can't she see how much time we are wasting??? this is the problem man, we are feeling wasted after joining amity.
The other day while having another "healthy conversation" with the students, some things got misconveyed. the faculty got so furious about it that she started picking up on the student personally. so immature!!!!!!!!!
ok SHIT happens, agreed. but its over man, get over it. even today when our mentor came she started digging up the matter again and, indirectly though, was demanding explaination. c'mon GROW UP PEOPLE!!!!!!
every night my brother and father calls me up and they ask me about how my studies are unfolding??? i, like a cold blooded lier, tell them its going great! i feel pathetic and sometimes angy! i dont know where my carrer is heading towards, but i know i will get a good job. i think this will be the only reason that i'm not as freaked out as my classmates.
Monday, October 6, 2008
Saturday, October 4, 2008
LIFE ITSELF
The right word is “Falling Apart”.
A curse, which developed as an art.
Born as a child of grace
But the same turned away its face.
In the pursuit of life
The child had to thrive.
He played his part well and good
Not perfect but tried best as he could.
He knew he was different
But on what grounds?
Constantly searching for answers
For which he doesn’t have questions.
Looking for answers
He went out of bounds.
Entered a dark world
Nothing was visible.
He felt good and invincible.
He conquered over his thoughts, mind
And life itself.
The place was silent and calm
He saw a figure
Took him beneath
He found what he was looking for
PEACE UNDERNEATH……..
A curse, which developed as an art.
Born as a child of grace
But the same turned away its face.
In the pursuit of life
The child had to thrive.
He played his part well and good
Not perfect but tried best as he could.
He knew he was different
But on what grounds?
Constantly searching for answers
For which he doesn’t have questions.
Looking for answers
He went out of bounds.
Entered a dark world
Nothing was visible.
He felt good and invincible.
He conquered over his thoughts, mind
And life itself.
The place was silent and calm
He saw a figure
Took him beneath
He found what he was looking for
PEACE UNDERNEATH……..
NOT A SINGLE PEARL
Hey Father!
Where are you? Why can’t I be with you?
Why I never had your love? Is it me, who is wrong?
People talking around me and I could not connect.
Never experienced the childhood like all of them did.
The games they were playing are alien to me.
They looked at me with disbelief, how can it be?
Everyone shared nice and joyous moments of life.
I tried to find one but unable to see.
Cry or laugh, I don’t know!
Lived so long in darkness
Light seems to be unapproachable.
I don’t regret my past
It HAUNTS me sometimes.
Sucking everything left inside
Throws its shadow on me constantly.
Present suffers, won’t let future too.
Trying to leave it behind but will I be able to?
Answer my father!! Are you listening?
Never answered, I keep on calling.
Never let you know what I am going through
But isn’t it your job to ask me too?
The memories of me crouching under the bed,
All alone inside the hostel, wish I’d be dead.
Spending Christmas at friend’s place
Stood last in the race.
No one was there
Needed a shoulder
Searched for a face.
Still…no one was there.
Winter holidays
Standing for the wave to arrive at bay,
Storm came but not the wave
Lightening blazed, sky glazed.
Me, still standing for my wave.
Spent holidays playing music
Traveling places, watching the world
Always came across the shells
Not a single pearl.
How can I forget the past?
It’ll stick to me till I last.
Tried hard to get over it
Searched for remedies
Haunts me so much
I wonder…
Will I rest in PEACE!!!!
Where are you? Why can’t I be with you?
Why I never had your love? Is it me, who is wrong?
People talking around me and I could not connect.
Never experienced the childhood like all of them did.
The games they were playing are alien to me.
They looked at me with disbelief, how can it be?
Everyone shared nice and joyous moments of life.
I tried to find one but unable to see.
Cry or laugh, I don’t know!
Lived so long in darkness
Light seems to be unapproachable.
I don’t regret my past
It HAUNTS me sometimes.
Sucking everything left inside
Throws its shadow on me constantly.
Present suffers, won’t let future too.
Trying to leave it behind but will I be able to?
Answer my father!! Are you listening?
Never answered, I keep on calling.
Never let you know what I am going through
But isn’t it your job to ask me too?
The memories of me crouching under the bed,
All alone inside the hostel, wish I’d be dead.
Spending Christmas at friend’s place
Stood last in the race.
No one was there
Needed a shoulder
Searched for a face.
Still…no one was there.
Winter holidays
Standing for the wave to arrive at bay,
Storm came but not the wave
Lightening blazed, sky glazed.
Me, still standing for my wave.
Spent holidays playing music
Traveling places, watching the world
Always came across the shells
Not a single pearl.
How can I forget the past?
It’ll stick to me till I last.
Tried hard to get over it
Searched for remedies
Haunts me so much
I wonder…
Will I rest in PEACE!!!!
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Since last couple of weeks i'm listening to PsyTrance and its getting into my veins now. I always believed that once the rock bug has bitten you then it becomes next to impossible to come out of the genre and try something else but this notion of mine got shattered into pieces.
A hardcore rock follower like me found something very exciting in it which was, in a way, lacking in rock. For me it was a channel to bring out my aggression. Though rock is also a very capable medium of doing the same but fall somewhere short when it comes to bringing it (aggression) to its zenith and then make it explode.
If you want some surreal experience or want to discover yourself inside-out, it is THE medium for you.
I remember when i was on a sick vacation to nainital, i had nothing to do but to sit in the balcony of my cottage because it was pouring elephants outside. I was drinking since morning and wanted to drink no more. I checked on my friends and found all of them smashed. Scared of boredom, i went inside and took out my stash of hash and weed, rolled 4 jos and sent it all alone. Inserted my earplugs and played Psy. HEAVEN!!!!!!!!!!! felt so close to the spirits of earth.
Didnt wanted to come out of that high.........
I'm slowly getting addicted to Psy. evryone should give it a try.......
PEACE \_/
A hardcore rock follower like me found something very exciting in it which was, in a way, lacking in rock. For me it was a channel to bring out my aggression. Though rock is also a very capable medium of doing the same but fall somewhere short when it comes to bringing it (aggression) to its zenith and then make it explode.
If you want some surreal experience or want to discover yourself inside-out, it is THE medium for you.
I remember when i was on a sick vacation to nainital, i had nothing to do but to sit in the balcony of my cottage because it was pouring elephants outside. I was drinking since morning and wanted to drink no more. I checked on my friends and found all of them smashed. Scared of boredom, i went inside and took out my stash of hash and weed, rolled 4 jos and sent it all alone. Inserted my earplugs and played Psy. HEAVEN!!!!!!!!!!! felt so close to the spirits of earth.
Didnt wanted to come out of that high.........
I'm slowly getting addicted to Psy. evryone should give it a try.......
PEACE \_/
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