DEJAVU

DOES IT EVER HAPPENED TO YOU THAT YOU COME ACROSS SOMEONE WHO IS MENTALLY SO SIMILAR TO YOU?????


I met one couple of days earlier. Its a girl, she is my classmate, north indian, energetic, bubbly. These are the traits that put drapes over my eyes initially. I looked at her as any other girl but as soon as we started talking, apart from the regular "in class" thing, i realized that she is not in the crowd but "with the crowd".

As i am still in the phase of recovery from the past emotional mishaps, i was looking for somebody to talk to and she served as a perfect sponge for me, soaking up everything that i was spilling.

Only after a few conversations over the phone she made me feel like i know her since eternity. I feel so relieved after talking to her. She takes away all my worries and help me to get a good nights' sleep. Never in my life, so far, i revealed so much to a person whom i know only for couple of weeks.

Though she seems or pretends to be very lively and energetic and bubbly, somewhere deep down inside her i can sense insecurity, confusion and dilemma. She never spoke about it but yes, i can tell that she is as mentally tangled as i am. I read her blogs yesterday and i felt sad on one hand but happy on the other. Sad because i always prayed to the almighty to never give anybody a life as FUCKED up as mine. Happy because its nice to talk and being around people whom you can connect with.

I've been thinking that is it correct to tell your shity stories to somebody who already have so much to worry about??? I'm not helping her in anyway to overcome her stress by putting the burden of my traumatic life over her shoulders.

She is a very nice human being and i want her to succeed in everything that she is dreaming of.