LIVING IS HARD

*LIVING IS HARD*

As I move away from you, my heart begins to cry.
Now I can’t be with you no matter how hard should I try?
I’m losing you & you are far
I’m earth & you are the star, you left with a scar.
Now it’s your turn to give it back,
I gave you everything but don’t know what it lacks.

Did I asked to much, more than a lot,
I have played all my cards; it’s your shot.
Spending time with one doesn’t mean you love them.
You got to be inside them & they should feel the same.
{It’s one life; you got to do what you should.
Love is a temple, love is higher law.
You asked me to enter & then you made me crawl.}

I can do whatever you ask me to, I’m not lame
I will always love you, no matter how old you become.
But it can’t be done because I’m here,
Writing this song & I don’t know your location.
I set out for you but I’m on the road & got no destination.
And now the light of life is fading away,
I know it’s going to end soon.
I wish I‘d looked for you earlier
In case my eyes are closed I could know who you are.
Now, I have to please myself with the moon.

I’m not weak, I’m not sad, I’m not sick & I’m glad
But I’m confused & I’m aimless. I’m good & selfless.
I’ve given to the world as much as I could & did what I should.
Then, why God? Why? Why are you doing this to me?
You’ve given me a picture that I can’t see.

I’ve done nothing bad,
I want to live out my days well & good, happy & smiling.
But you never let me, it’s sad.
Took me to high hill, full with wood, & can’t stop climbing.
It’s not a complaint. I’m asking you.
Give me an answer if you can.
Don’t leave me on my own this time, & ask to “be a man”.
Living is hard with this weight on my heart,
I have to let it out & never again allow entering my heart.
If you want to take something,
Take away the bad memories, take away my hate
& Fill it with love & trust.

Crying, sobbing & weeping
Now my eyes are dry, no tears left anymore.
I can’t feel anything; I’m numb to the core.
Soul, body, heart
Life, strength, love
Nothing is in its place.
I’m tired, I will not anymore, chase.
Tired of waiting too.
I will live with or without you,
You tied my hands, & bruised my body,
You got me with nothing to win & nothing left to loose.
& I’m giving myself away
Child rising from ashes, happy to see that?
See yourself what you’ve given me, driving me mad.
Driving me mad.
Driving me mad.
ONLY ME.